The monster in my head are back.
Slowly growing bigger.
I can feel it eating me up, from the inside out.
Sucking all the energy out of me.
Taking away my will to fight. To live.
I want to run, to hide, but how can I get away from a monster that lives inside of me?
Will I ever be free?

Another day on autopilot.

I don’t know how much longer I can do this. Get up, go to work, walk around like a zombie, barly takling to anybody, go home and stare blankly at the TV until it’s time to go to bed.

I need something that excites me. Something that make me want to get up in the morning. I just don’t know what that is and I’m getting tired of searching for it.

From July 28th.

i miss the cold steel
i know i shouldn’t
but i just wanna feel so badly
even if it’s just pain

Welcome to attempt 984 to restart this blog.

What makes this attempt different from all the others you may ask? Not much, except that I really need a creative outlet right now. My life is going to shit and and I need to start using my brain again. Simple as that!

If you are looking for a blog that provides you with beautiful pictures, various reviews, fun and cool outfits and such, I’m sorry to disappoint you, this it not it. I’m not saying that some of those things might not pop up every now and then, but for the most part, this blog is going old school. This will be my online journal as I try to find my way back to myself.

Lets enjoy the ride, or something!



“The moments that make life worth living are when things are at their worst and you find a way to laugh.”

– Amy Schumer